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(Monday, December 05, 2005-)
+4:56 AM]*
# i never did get over you..so what..?-
does it really matter that i never got over you? i mean i never forgot everything you did and the mere memory of you kills me..it's just that you taught me how to hide the pain so well that i almost got everybody fooled..but then i think the time has come for me to put away the mask.. it's time to let people see what i really feel..but then again..is it really..dad?
this day generally sucked..but taking my whole life into perspective, you'll see that it's way more than we all think it is..
the story ends like this;
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(Thursday, December 01, 2005-)
+12:01 AM]*
# dragonfly summer-
**this is kinda like my last xanga entry pero wala lang..**
like i said, i was thinking of songs..wala lang..just wanted to think of songs..and then i remembered "keeping my eye on you"..since it's a michael franks song (i dunno if you guys know him pero my dad loves him!) i started remembering all these old songs of his like "how i remember you" and "dragonfly summer" and "the dream" and "soulmate"..all those songs remind me of my weekends with my dad..incidentally, i had to go back home last wednesday to get all these filipiniana costumes from home..and then i saw IT..i saw the michael franks cd "dragonfly summer"..this was my chance to get all senti and reminisce..but oddly enough, i didnt get all teary eyed or whatever when i played the disc..it was the normalest thing ever..it was as if i was taken backto that saturday and my dad was sitting on the breakfast table..it was 11 in the am and we all hadnt taken our baths..breakfast would be served..after eating, my dad would play his cd (this time, michael franks is on) and, since it's december, take out the christmas tree..he'd wash the tree out himself while singing and dancing to the music..me my mom and my brother would be taking out the other christmas decor..at around 1230 lunch would be served and it's time for everyone to take a break..after lunch though, work resumes..we'd all be doing what we have to do and then at around 6pm, the fun part comes..after playing michael franks the whole day, dad would change cds..he'd play these cheery christmas songs..why? coz we have to start decorating the 7foot tree..it's the weirdest thing..it's kinda like a scene out of a movie but then it's really happening..and when we finally finish the christmas tree, the music will change..it will be my mom's choice this time..so it's either kenny loggins or michael bolton..but either way, they will still be singing christmas songs..
i kinda miss these moments when i had to care about basically nothing..i mean i dont have to stress over the 'small stuff' coz i had someone sweat it for me..like when i need help on some artwork for school, (believe me, i ALWAYS need help on art) id have my mom do it for me.. and when i need help on maths, my dad's there..those are just some of the small stuff i have to sweat about now..and then some..
the story ends like this;
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(Monday, November 21, 2005-)
+3:33 AM]*
# senseless..-
Message: 20 People You Can Think Of Right Off Your Head(random order)
1 steph
2 nicco
3 ate kaye
4 nicole
5 basti
6 ninang jenny
7 kuya mark
8 monch
9 sir dan
10 sir franz
11 karisse
12 jason
13 kaymee
14 icka
15 sudoy
16 hannah
17 jasper
18 jp
19 sis isa
20 andrew
How did you meet ..13? LR19..extra strong..all thanks to dlsu..ü
What do you honestly think of 10? monster programmer..
Have you ever liked 3? i dont just like her..i love her..(aww sweet)
Would 2 and 11 make a good couple? no..she's older..
Do you think 12 is hot? define hot..it dpends kasi on what you consider HOT..ü
Who is 8 going out with? uhh..i dunno..naalala ko lang sha bigla..
Is 1 a boy or a girl? GIRL..haha..no doubt about it..
What is 9's favorite band? hehe..i dunno..
Does 13 have any siblings? yeah she does..
Would you ever date 5? hell no..
Would you ever date 7? hallo..that would be incest..
Is 15 single? i think so..yeah..haha
what is 19s last name? martinez..isabela alexa MARTINEZ..
What does 17 look like? ya-tigidigsh..haha..kiddin..gwapo yan..ü
what is 10's fantasy? i dont wanna know..haha
Would 14 and 19 ever get together? i hope not..
What school does 16 go to and wat course? CSB..takin up hrim..
How old is 18? i think he's turning 17 this dec..hehe.. im not sure..
Where does 9 live? sa laspinas
Would you make out with 13? woohoo..kaymee??
Are 5 and 6 best friends? no..theyre cousins..
Is 20 older than you? i dunno..im taller than him though..
Is 15 the sexiest person alive? oh yesss..sudoy's the HOTTEST..
Do you love 2? next question please..ü
Is number 14 somewhat weird? i love icka the way she is..
Is number 4 thin? yeah..she is..
the story ends like this;
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+3:21 AM]*
# so deep in crush..and hating it..-
**if you drop by my xanga, i have the exact same entry there..i just added a little something at the end..
ive always had this thing for really smart and sensible guys..as in the kind who actually think..and never have i liked a guy who's stupid, a bimbot or a dimwit..(harsh words i know..it's just that i dislike them so much..and "dislike" is an understatement at that)..and right now, im so freakin deep in crush with a smartysmarty guy..and i hate it..ive always been the girl who becomes helpless when "the crush" is around..ive always been the girl who easily melts..ive always been the girl who could neverever hide her kilig about something..even if it means turning red right in front of his face..come one..i dont like it either..in fact i hate it as much as you guys do..but it's something that can't be helped..and i totally hate having to deal with it right now..
another thing about the guys i like is that they are so..not popular..they're not losers..but then they're not mister popular either..and they're definitely not the campus hotties..it isnt that i dont appreciate hot people..it's just that i find guys who everyone likes boring..they're the kind of guys who go for the kind of girls we all expect them to go for..and being part of that population makes him boring..i dunno why but i just find them to be like that..
ive always been told that the guys i like are weird..when i tell people that i like this particular guy, i always get 'that look' from them and then they go "why?? ano meron sa kanya??"..and i dont care..i like him and no one should care either..
CONFESSION: crushing on guys tire me..coz i have so many..but i somehow get this feeling that this one's actually gonna last..i mean if they can do it then so can i..dba?ü hahaha (oops double meaning..*winkwink*)
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+3:21 AM]*
# so deep in crush..and hating it..-
**if you drop by my xanga, i have the exact same entry there..i just added a little something at the end..
ive always had this thing for really smart and sensible guys..as in the kind who actually think..and never have i liked a guy who's stupid, a bimbot or a dimwit..(harsh words i know..it's just that i dislike them so much..and "dislike" is an understatement at that)..and right now, im so freakin deep in crush with a smartysmarty guy..and i hate it..ive always been the girl who becomes helpless when "the crush" is around..ive always been the girl who easily melts..ive always been the girl who could neverever hide her kilig about something..even if it means turning red right in front of his face..come one..i dont like it either..in fact i hate it as much as you guys do..but it's something that can't be helped..and i totally hate having to deal with it right now..
another thing about the guys i like is that they are so..not popular..they're not losers..but then they're not mister popular either..and they're definitely not the campus hotties..it isnt that i dont appreciate hot people..it's just that i find guys who everyone likes boring..they're the kind of guys who go for the kind of girls we all expect them to go for..and being part of that population makes him boring..i dunno why but i just find them to be like that..
ive always been told that the guys i like are weird..when i tell people that i like this particular guy, i always get 'that look' from them and then they go "why?? ano meron sa kanya??"..and i dont care..i like him and no one should care either..
CONFESSION: crushing on guys tire me..coz i have so many..but i somehow get this feeling that this one's actually gonna last..i mean if they can do it then so can i..dba?ü hahaha (oops double meaning..*winkwink*)
the story ends like this;
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(Sunday, November 20, 2005-)
+6:38 AM]*
# weekends that actually make me want to go to school..-
i had a great weekend..i had a lot of fun..and i wasnt stressed out about anything..to the point that i actually make me want to go to school coz i was so 'revitalized'..but whatever..
i was blog hoppin kanina..and i happened to frop by niko's blog..and i saw one of his latest entries..the one that had me in it...kasi dba nga last sat we went home together..and we had one of THOSE talks..the one where i said that the more you try to please people, the more you're creatin an alter ego..or rather alter egoes..and i was ponderin on it a while ago and ive come to a realization that i did go through the same thing..i was tryin so hard to please everyone that i came to the point that i didnt know myself anymore...i kinda saw myself in everyone..and i was kinda happy din before that i wasnt different..and,god, am i thankful that ive opened my eyes na..that being like other people isnt what it cracked up to be..that being different is waaayyy better..my problem right now is that i hate being like anyone else..in any way..as in even in the smallest ways..i really hate it..ayun lang..share ko lang..
oh and another thing..i was readin my new book, daughter of god, (recommended by my room mate karisse) and i came across a part where Seth said that he was still a firm believer in god coz he believes that despite all the 'controversies' and stuff about catholics, he believes that the mystery is a part of what god wants..that the more we believe despite all the unknowns, the more worthy we are of his kingdom..i was just so struck deeply by that part coz that's the way every christian should think..i mean if we all believed the same thing then everyone's faith would be sooo strong..
what do you think?
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+6:13 AM]*
# gone were those days..-
okay..first of all..i want you to know that i only did this survey coz jp posted this on friendster's bulletin board with the subject "really missin hs?"..and i was feelin kinda nostalgic the past couple of days so..here i am..preparin' to answer yet another friendster survey..
1. ANO TAWAG SAYO SA SCHOOL NYO?...tracy...and the name will stay the same til the day i get all gray and shrivelly..
2. ANO FAVECOLOR/S MO, BKIT?...umm..green..kasi green ang seton and lasalle..ü haha..
3. ANO FAVE NUMBER MO(isa lng), BKIT?...16..ewan ko kung bakit..ang ganda tignan eh..
4.SECTION MO 1ST-4TH YR KA?
1st--limnology
2nd--theology aka DAVAO DEL SUR
3rd--sociology aka COTABATO CITY
4th--sociology uli aka COTABATO CITY pa rin
5. ANO UNG BEST YEAR MO SA HIGH?i dunno..3rd and 4th year i guess..
6. HS CUTIES? hmm..madami..una na dun si...mcdo guy..crush ko sha since gr6! haha..pathetic..
7.ANO ALL TIME FAVE FOOD MO SACANTEEN?wala..seton food sucks!
8. KAAWAY? ndi ko alam..pero may nagalit sakin na teacher..as in bashing talaga in class..hehe..pero bati na kami..ü
9. MAY STAGE PLAY...BA KAYO, ANO? ROLE MO?hmm..
2nd year--chinese sumthin..narrator ako..
--mulan na super walang kwenta kasi minor activity lang pero gusto ko ilagay dito kasi ako si MULAN nun..hehe
4th year--El Filibusterismo..i love my role here!! as in..ang funky..ako si QUIROGA..yung chinese na trader..na LALAKI..ahahaha..and i have the pictures to mark that day forever..and ginamit yun nila roland sa music video nung graduation..pero maliit lang ako dun and hindi alam na ako..hehe..
10.ANONGFAVORITE TAMBAYAN SA SCHOOL NYO?madami..kung tambay crew kasama ko, stairs yun..kung si vien, sa 'bondingan'..kung sila dolly and yanee and vien and hannah (nung grad practice) sa biodome yun hahaha..
11. ANOFAVE SUBJECT MO?english...lalo na nung 4th year..hehe..and PE! mygad! ang taas ko sa PE!! ako lang ata yung bumabagsak sa PE eh..haha
12. ANO HATEMONG SUBJECT?wala..(uyy..plastic..)
13. SAN NA BANGLUGAR KAYO NAGRETREAT? DB Batulao (at ikaw-WAW! haha)
14. SAN KAYONAKAPAG-FIELDTRIp?Banahaw..subic..un lang ung super saya..pero we went to batangas din..ung mga old houses ng heroes and stuff..saka house ni aguinaldo..pero since cavite galing parents ko, ilang times na ko nakapunta dun before the trip..hehe..
15. PINAKANAGUSTUHAN MONG PLACE MAGTAWANAN?sa bondingan namin ni vien..and
sa stairs..yun ung central place ng lahat ng kababalaghan..haha..kasi dun lahat ng laugh trips and journeys..dun ung mga pasabog ni DOLLY ng tsismis..dun ung mga tulogan pag umaga..dun ung kainan pag umaga and pag lunch..dun ung kopyahan ng assignment kahit na hindi kami classmates..like i said, central place ng tambay crew..
16.MAINIT BA SA CLASRUM NYO?oo..sa lahat naman eh..i think seton has its own weather control system..designed to keep the campus summery all year round since everyone's into the beach thing naman daw..hehe..
17. MAY MULTO BA?meron daw..ask nyo si fidji..
18. MAYKAAWAY/KAGALIT KA BA SA SCHOOL NYO? diba natanong na to kanina?
19. BAKIT MO CLA KAAWAY?ah ewan..
20. MISS MO NA BAgrade school lyf MO?oo..kasi achiever ako noon..always may merit cards..hehe..eh ngayon? always may..may..card..haha..
22. SINO MADALAS MONG KASAMA SASCHOOL MO(specifyfriends)?hannah vien dolly
23. MAY CRUSH KA BA SA SCHOOL NYO?SINO?meron..madami..every room meron..every quarter nagpapalit..everyday may kilig moment tuloy..haha
24. WHAT DIDN'T YOU LIKE MOSTABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?i think the fact that IT'S OVER..
the story ends like this;
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(Wednesday, November 16, 2005-)
+3:40 AM]*
# hump day-
this day sucked..
i didnt wake up on time so i had to be absent for my first class..
i didnt get to help set up the booth for the batch shirt designs..
ilnam didnt submit his entry( the one he promised )..
so..basically..my day already sucked even before it actually started!!
and it continued to suck the whole day through...
i didnt read for instudi so, yes i was absent as well..
i didnt read kaspil's readings so i was cramming all these historical info into my mind so that we could submit the activity on time..
and the grand finale?
YOU..you didnt tell me all that..
and i actually thought you would..
i guess i was right about you after all..
the story ends like this;
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(Monday, November 14, 2005-)
+4:28 AM]*
# hmmm...-
i dunno if you guys have noticed..but ive been changing blogs every couple of months..it isnt because i cant handle the old one..it's just that i get bored easily with something..i keep looking for a change in my system..and blogging is part of my system..and i cant deal with signing into xanga everyday fill you in on whatever things and then log out..it feels so..BORING..yeah.. STOOPID..
i know..
but then are you really gonna do anything about it?
NO??
yeah..i thought so..
the story ends like this;
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(Sunday, November 13, 2005-)
+5:57 AM]*
# -
the story ends like this;
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